Old friend

I had a thought this morning. I've always referred to Jean as my "best friend"....sometimes as "my best friend from MN." That isn't true. She's not my BEST friend she's just an old friend. When I think of it like that it isn't so awful that she never thinks of me. We can keep in touch but it's not going to be as regular as it has been. Jan had a good idea. Just respond to her e mails with "I'm really busy now but I'll write more later" and then don't. She's so wrapped up in herself that she won't even notice. Hopefully that will help with my "Jean stress" which is very unhealthy.

On another note, I'm so depressed for Brenna and for myself. Another three years that she won't be living in Portland. I'm sure she'll write about it in her blog so I won't go into details. I know things always work out the way they should and it will all be fine but why can't things ever work out the way I want them to? After all, it's all about ME or at least it should be.